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Susah nak crita…

Kau bkn taknak crita,
Tp deep down, kau rasa semua pon tau…
Satu dunia la suka kat kau.


Pastu something went wrong sometimes.
Biasa la bila2 Dia nak ingatkan…
Pastu…
Satu dunia la benci kat kau.


Kau rasa kau x pernah dgn sengaja buat silap.
Kau rasa dah betul.Terbaik.
Tapi…
Satu dunia la dengki kat kau.

Kau.
Kau.
Kau.

Sikit2 kau.
Byk2 pon kau.
Tak habis2.

Org lain pon sebenarnya sama.
Diorg pon mcm kau.

Diorg.
Diorg.
Diorg.

Xde masa la nak pikir pasal kau.
Tolonglah.
Jangan.


Kawan, sila kuat. Dia masih sgt penuh dengan dirinya.

p.s. Sila jgn perasan. Ini bukan utk anda.

2 good news

Slalu kita lupa, itu yg kita minta
Bila diberi, kenapa terngadah?
Woi, itu rezekilah!

Nasrah, sila terasa.
Hajat hg kat situ ja.
Jgn pjgkn. Buat pening kepala bokpa? :P

Amir, itu tanda.
Kekuasaanya.
Berkat doa dari sana.

Abaikan bayang serta labu2nya.
Kesian kat depa.
Kanak2 lagi akalnya.

I won't

i don't want to be like you.
i won't.

dan aku tak mahu ikut permainan kanak-kanak kau tu...
kau seronok?
bagus.
teruskan.

aku cuma nak bagitau
awal-awal lagi kau dah hilang markah.
dah kalah.
sudahlah.

*kesian.


i'm enjoying what HE granted
that is making do without it


we wanted this, for sure
can't you be adult about it?


and
be careful for what you wish for.
i hope you'll enjoy it.

all the best!
haha.

Truly blessed

I wrote a mantra on my wall mirror...

"Too blessed to be stressed..."
~ by anything.
It's been my powerful daily motivation. I've truly been blessed. With a lot of things. I've always considered myself as lucky (though 'luck' is not what i really meant - but blessing, it is). LUCK? Ntah. I don't really favour that word really. It's not luck. It's blessing. Granted by HIM. THE ALMIGHTY.

I'm enjoying fairly fabulous blessing right now. Weehooo!! I always know being happy will always lead to more happiness... (although there's no exception that you're 'granted' with the 'reminder' from time to time). Just chill (menampar diri sendiri bila tetiba teringat all the tiny little things that I potentially turn into issues)!

Now, let's count the blessing.

I love ME, being ME (despite all the shortcomings),
I LOVE ME somehow.

I love all the people that surround me
(xnak list down, sbb nanti terlupa nak include...)
But that definitely includes YOU (despite who you are)
And you, it's ok, I love you somehow.
For being part of my life for the good & the bad.

I love what surrounds me now.
The environment, the people, the feelings.
The offices, the gardens, the roads.
And all the good things.
And oh, for the fact that I'm learning new things.
That will take me somewhere.

p.s. They have a free gym on the next building. And the personal parking. And they have a nursery and library... (ke aku yg jakun nih?)

I'm grateful I was granted the opportunity to experience all these.

ALHAMDULILLAH.

Friends, keep on asking & praying. HE will help us in various ways you can't even imagine. Things are so damn good and will get better. A whole lot better. Soon. Very much sooner.

Beringat

Kau ingat x dulu kau penah ckp,
"Aku mmg benci kat dia tu!"

dia tu = aku la

Kau x ingat?
Aku ingat.

Mungkin sbb kau x ingat, maka kau tak mintak maaf.
Tapi aku dah lama maafkan dah.
Sbb aku tau kau bkn jenis yang berani mintak maaf.
Atau mungkin kau sebenarnya tak reti mintak maaf.

Ke kau ingat diri kau mmg x penah buat salah?
Agaknye lah.
Entahlah.

Sudah-sudahlah.
Perangai mcm budak2.
Buat org gelak.

Things are getting better

Saya sayang blog saya ni!!! *ok, xdak kaitan. Nasrah, Shera, update blog anda, please!

I was browsing through old entries when I bumped into 'Read the road signs' entry (sila klik). It was back in January. Now, guess what - after half a year...

Dlm entry tu, aku ada mentioned application Budak Kecik untuk jadi pilot MAS was rejected. Dan dia agak down hari tu... Tp as usual, kami meneruskan hidup mcm biasa. Bila aku caci maki hari aku, dia ingatkan. Bila dia caci maki plak, aku gelakkan.

Now that I'm leaving Honeywell, dia tumpang gumbira. Aku? Err, honestly, aku sentiasa ingatkan diri aku - 'To treat the triumph and disaster just the same - IF by Rudyard Kiplings'. Is this a triumph or disaster?

Triumph - in terms of career development (and the pay, of course - rezeki nak kawin nih...).

Disaster - for the fact that I'll be working for the government authority, there'll be no more long-sleeve t-shirt and jeans for my daily uniform! Aku x bleh imagine pegi keja tetiap hari pakai baju kurung! Dan baju kurung aku ada hanyalah 10 helai = stok 2 minggu. Kawan aku dah warning, kalo aku asyik ulang2 pakai baju yg sama, makcik kerani akan tegur... sbb diorg lebih glam.

Isk, byk plak aku merungut. Patutnya aku bersyukur.
Alhamdulillah.
And for Budak Kecik. He got a job with an airline company in Abu Dhabi. As an aircraft technician. Might not sound as good as 'MAS pilot' but guess how much he'll be paid? 10k. In their currency. And he'll have an opportunity to be trained to be an aircraft engineer.
Since he's like a lil' bro to us (Q&A), dia dah cakap - "Aku bagi korang Vios."
Alah, Vios je? (ciss, x bersyukur lg ni...) Wehh, aku nak tiket percutian setiap thn. To any destination in the world. Tengkiu very much.

p.s. So glad things are getting really good. Like really, really good. (Kan wey, kan... hg pon kan? Heheh... you know who you are!)

Alhamdullillah! I thank YOU!

To A Friend... Maybe...

Maybe . . .
We were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one
so that, when we finally meet the right person,
we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Maybe . . .
It is true that we don't know what we have until we lose it,
but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing
until it arrives.

Maybe . . .
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past;
after all, you can't go on successfully in life
until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and heartaches.

Maybe . . .
You should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human,
and enough hope to make you happy.

Maybe . . .
the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Maybe . . .
the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with,
never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

Maybe . . .
happiness waits for all those who cry,
all those who hurt,
all those who have searched,
and all those who have tried,
for only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives.

May be . .
you should do something nice for someone every single day,
even if it is simply to leave them alone.

Maybe . . .
there are moments in life when you miss someone -- a parent, a spouse, a friend, a child
so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real,
so that once they are around you appreciate them more.

Maybe . . .
giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back.
Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart;
but, if it doesn't, be content that it grew in yours.

Maybe . . .
you should dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go, be what you want to be,
because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you dream of, and want to do.


Life is only traveled ONCE, Today’s MOMENT becomes TOMORROW’s MEMORY.

Enjoy every moment, good or bad, because the GIFT of LIFE is LIFE itself...

p.s. Got this email from colleague. Definitely a sign.

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